MANDY NG ♥

Friday, December 4, 2009 Too many things have been happening now in my life and I just need somebody/something to talk to, to seek advice from. I have scandals from this side that I can't leak to the other and from the other that I can't leak to this. It is so difficult and tiring that i dont feel like seeing anybody. And you know what, I'm gonna be honest now that I've been a real bitch for the past week. I know what I'm doing isn't right. I'm not only fucking up one relationship. I'm not gonna say how many or who, but I'm certain that I'm going to hell. I'm gonna create an lj and just spam everything that I can't express here in there. How I feel towards the opposite sex, my opinion towards lesbian, relationship and other explicit issues that's been bugging me so badly recently. And I know I should so start a book right. I mean all my close friends keep telling me that I shoould start compiling all my stupid happenings and I might just earn a living through that. Naaiise, maybe I should stop dreaming. Back to my life. I think my mom's happy that I haven't really been going out late at night for this week. Although I'm thinking of zouk/wavehouse/butterfact tomorrow! But I'm probably gonna be lazy AGAIN, and stay home to watch L word. I'm so addicted you have no idea! I was watching L word till 7am yesterday(today). I would most likely continue after I'm done blogging. It's 5.26am now btw. So I recently got a job from Recruit Express. I got fired before I even get the job cos I told them I'll be away for 10 days in Europe. I got a call from another agency (I forgot the name) and they offered a better pay and a preferred location too, yay! They sent in my resume, I hope I get short listed (cross fingers!).

You have no fucking idea how I'm feeling now. Is this love..? Should I, or should I not?