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MANDY NG ♥ |
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Hey! Just a blink and the 2 months holiday has come to an end. It's 12 midnight and I should be sleeping very soon. I don't know how I'm gonna sleep as I've been sleeping earliest 4am every night during the holidays. Just wanna get some stuff off my chest before the brand new semester begins. New lecturer and tutors. New modules. And hopefully a new life. I'm going through quite a fucked up phase of my life now. My girlfriend and I are about to break up (I'm certain), my best friend's mom fucking hates me like she wants me dead right now, no more partying/late night out for me cos school's starting tomorrow.
I just can't stand it when people just start judging me without even know me. As far as i know myself. I party hard when it's time for party, I study hard when it's study time, I love unconditionally when it comes to love, I do as much as I can for my family and I cancel any appointment just to accompany grandma for her checkups. How bad can someone like me be? So please, don't fucking judge me when you don't even know me or my history. You're probably insecure or dumb to judge anyone, especially me. I know everyone judges people cos you're not god. But you don't have the right to fucking hate someone so much when all I did to give you the basic human right to respect. That's one. Secondly, I don't see why my relationship is going all down into the drain. Being washed off by the soft flowing water. What amuses all is that, I don't even feel the pain anymore at all. I'm all numbed. All I could feel now is exhaustion. Like I'm so dehydrated after a love marathon and I need to down a bottle filled with love to quench my thirst. Ok, I know I suck in expressing my feelings but that was what came into my mind. Now, I just need to finish the fucking tiring marathon and then search for another sport to do. Maybe like going back to bowling cos it's less tiring? Ok only some of my close friends would understand what the fuck I'm blabbering about :) I'm just tryna say that I tried my best. And I think I'm ready to give up this relationship and move on. Okie I'm kinda done with this post. Gonna finish my beer and head to bed soon hopefully. Feel free to add me @ sadlonelyheartbrokenuglydopegurlzxc1992@hotmail.com Personal shout-out you1: let's end this you2: BBM me soon I kinda feel like talking to you. I don't believe you never thought of me. you3: come on fb chat again soon. dont forget ur promise, x you4: friends only~
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